Lyrics

My hand, your halo

Your moon, my shadow

Trembling, I’m porcelain

You ask me, are you certain?

I couldn’t stand to say what I was searching for

I scarcely could admit what I was crawling toward.

Bitter, my arrow

Your tongue, a low blow

Holy comfort—

I am scorned.

I couldn’t stand to say what I was searching for

I scarcely could admit what I was crawling toward

I couldn’t stand to say what I was searching for

I scarcely could admit what I was clawing toward—

I am a painter working in marble.

I can’t make this up—

(and I’m afraid it’s true)

I should stop myself when I think of you

but you’re always in my line of view

Now we’re headed to the show with our friends

and I’m trying to play it cool again

focus my eyes on the dashes and lines

as I try not to drive off into the shoulder

But I can’t forgive how you made me feel

like I wasn’t real—

when you said you were lonely, that’s what really hurt me

as if I wasn’t here the whole time, hanging with you.

I’ve got girls who wanna shoot their shot

give me their numbers in the parking lot

I’ve got people waiting in line

but I still take my time,

Because every little thing I do

I do it all for you

wish it wouldn’t be this way

but the feeling won’t go away,

and if I really loved you, I’d want you happy,

so what the hell is wrong with me?

I can’t make this up—

(I wouldn’t, anyway)

you were leaning hard on the top of my car

and I swear I saw that glint in your eye

And I cried when I saw your new cowboy boots

can’t you see I’m hung up on you?

Wanna stare at the floor when I talk to you

but then I see those goddamn shoes

I try to push it away

I try again and again

but the feeling is taunting me,

it's impossible to breathe

I try to push it away

I try again and again

but your memory’s haunting me,

and I can't catch my breath

I hate it when you’re on the phone

and I hate it when you leave me alone

I try to tell you how I feel,

but I don’t think that you believe me…

Because every little thing I do

I do it all for you

wish it wouldn’t be this way

but the feeling won’t go away,

and if I really loved you, I’d want you happy,

so what the hell is wrong with me?

Flipping a coin

that always lands on tails

trying so hard

that I know that I’ll fail

Little love notes

left on the mirror

cover it up

now I can see me clearer

I was 14 and doomed by my family tree

if you’re looking for bad advice, then you can come to me.

We all see

you’re sinking like a stone

late for the bus

forgot your lunch and your headphones

Kicking up leaves

finally alone

don’t wanna be here,

but you don’t wanna go home

You were 14 and doomed by your family tree

looking for answers, but they never come for free

Pushing the food around your plate

stay alive long enough to become what you hate.

I was 29 and fucked by my family history

cynical and angry, and that’s when you crashed into me

Same sickness dripping down on you

shit never gets easier, you just learn how to push through—

I— I wanna try

to be a part of your life

it’s so close to mine

But I— I can’t deny

that sometimes it’s hard,

our pain’s so intertwined.

Julie

I don't wanna talk

all you do is whine, whine, whine

about your man, it's the same old line

Julie

I don't wanna talk

all you do is cry-cry, cry-cry

about your boyfriend, he's behind in the times

Julie

I don't wanna talk

J-j-j-julie

I don't wanna talk, t-talk, no more--

Julie

cut your hair

like the cool girls do it

Julie

see if I care

I never think about you when I do it

Julie

I don't wanna talk

J-j-j-julie

I don't wanna talk, t-talk, no more--

Julie

so pretty in your party dress

out of place at the protest

gonna make you mine

Julie

break up with your boyfriend

I haven't got the time-time, time-time

to wait for him to make up his mind, oh!

Julie

I don't wanna talk

J-j-j-julie

I don't wanna talk, t-talk, no more--

Julie

I just want to love you

J-j-j-julie

I just want to love you!

(Lyrics by Kim Lowney).

Kim is not mine anymore

___________.

just a girl that I adored

(nevermore).

Said that she would never leave me

but I see her heading for the door

she said "you can always believe me"

she lied, what a bore–

Kim is not mine anymore

___________.

just a girl that I adored

(nevermore).

She don't wanna talk about it

she don’t want to fight with me no more

she says that there's no way around it

that we keep fighting just to even out the score

Kim is not mine anymore

___________.

just a girl that I adored

(nevermore)

Kim is not mine anymore

just a girl that I adored.

And I'm sick without you here.

I'm sick without you here.

Now that I've found you,

I've gotta wrap my arms around you

sick without you here.

Talking on the phone for several hours

caught me up in your strange powers

I can't wait to see you

so happy when I'm near you

I'm dying over you,

you're dying missing me, too.

I know you're gonna get back to your glory

gonna look back, it's just a chapter of the story

I'm gonna see you through it

I know that you can do it

I'm dying over you,

you're dying missing me, too.

You're my limb, you're my brother.

Get your man, he’s barking like a bad dog

she grabs his shoulders

and shouts “no”

I don’t think you’re a dangerous man,

but there are some things

that you’ve got to let go of.

Duck in the car, singing some song from the bar

then you slam my door hard into the pole 

the marigold is crushed to dust in the cup holder

It’s so typical, the way you’re existential

dread-full on a Sunday night

It always shows up right on time.

I drag out goodbyes

I always get made fun of

I can’t look in your eyes

unless you’re finally leaving

I always miss the end;

it’s already passed?

Been waking up early

it’s nice to have some time that’s just for me in the morning

take my coffee on the rusted old bridge

and watch the birds fly in their military formations

Been waiting for your call

instruct myself that I should not expect that much at all

now here you are, my friend

you’ve come to prove me wrong then prove me right again.

You were not well, nor necessary

I try to only lift as much as I can stand to carry

water will rush in, it’s the only thing we can rely on

I lost something of me when I lost your shoulder to cry on. 

Each day I don the work shirt

I’ve streamlined every minute of my half-an-hour commute

trained myself to say hello, how-do-you-do

and no one will know that I am thinking of you

I try to be light-footed

try to be nimble, and not look too haunted

but then you go and knock me down again

I lost myself, I go to pieces—

I was not well, nor necessary

you said I was the thing you could no longer stand to carry

water will rush in, it’s the only thing we can rely on

I lost something of me when I lost your shoulder to cry on—

Next time I see you I’ll just keep walking. 

You were not well, you were not well, you were not well—

and I was not well.

It’s such a picture perfect day

in the sky, not a hint of gray

but the birds don’t sing

The plane is lying on its side

It reminds me of a dead whale

and the fishtail is sticking straight up in the sky

Hundreds died, but somehow

you and I survived.

I try hard to start, but never figure it out

stomach called my bluff, I get dressed in the dark

I’m trying to be around, I’m trying to show you I care

I’m turning to tell you something but now you’re not there.

There is a window at eye-height

as I work I can look outside

at the traffic light

The cars all stop and take their time

and they wait for their turn in line

and they’re so polite, unless they don’t feel like it this time—

You will die, and somehow

I must stay alive.

I’ve been up all night trying to figure it out

make my ritual, prepare my back for the breaking

because if I can crack this code then I can keep you safe

and when I finally figure it out, you’ll be the first that I tell.

I can feel we're on the edge of something

I can feel it in your breath

the butterfly meets the windshield

such a pretty, violent death.

I'm tired of playing angel

I'm sorry for being honest

I know I can be selfish

I know this is you trying your hardest.

Hold me close

and kill me slowly

I wanna know, but I don't wanna know.

Another evening, wasted

watching ants drown in the sugarbowl

he's getting high in the backroom, and now

I'm breaking down in the bathroom

my love, it's taking a toll.

I can feel I'm on the edge of something

I can feel it nearing

you were dying in a dream

it felt so real to me

I left the window open–

(we had rushed you to the hospital)

when I got home there were hundreds of moths, flying around the room

was like standing in a snow globe

Gotta let go because I love you

gotta trust you wanna stay alive

loosen my grip on you

we both deserve better.

Hold me close

and kill me slowly

I wanna know–

I know you're trying your hardest.